My YouTube break: Unfiltered thoughts
Join me as I share the real story behind my YouTube break, the unexpected turns, and what it truly means to step away and then return on my own terms. It's more than just a break; it's a journey of self-discovery and honest expression. - YouTube Break March 28th 2026 to September 31st 2026 Fully Back on YouTube October 1st 2026
The break that wasn't quite a break
So, the whole deal for my YouTube break was because I had just released my 13th album, "Leaving a Big Aftershine Legacy Behind," with a total of 64 tracks. The problem and issue was that I was supposed to be on a YouTube break, which meant no posting videos, reels, nothing. I started my break on March 28, 2026, and I wasn't supposed to come back until October 1, 2026. My break was initially from March 28, 2026, to September 31, 2026, but now I find myself adding a description that says, "I'm still on my YouTube break but I needed to post this!" I ended up posting 25 videos, and now I'm coming out of retirement. Yeah, a bit shocking, but everyone, get over it. I'm going to go ahead and rip off the band-aid and say this: yes, I may be posting on YouTube while still on break, but let me finish. I'm not posting every single day; only when I feel like, "Okay, this needed to be posted." That's just me for you.
Missing "The Ivy Vlogs" and a secret revealed
I guess for me, I miss it and don't come out with it and say, "If you miss it so much, then why can't we get a season 4 of it?" Well, it sounds crazy, but the one show I miss the most when it comes to filming is my original YouTube TV series, "The Ivy Vlogs." It started in January of 2025 and ended with season 3 in October of 2026. I can't pretend about it and say I don't miss filming the show, because that would be lying, and I can't lie to my fans. I have to tell the truth about how I feel about it (key word meaning: How do I feel about leaving "The Ivy Vlogs"'s set from YouTube). I miss it every single day, literally. But here is the big question: why can't viewers see the continuing of season 4 of "The Ivy Vlogs?" Well, I can say this: "The Ivy Vlogs" was supposed to return this year between 2026 and 2027. Coming back would mean a new storyline; I wouldn't be focusing on what I left off on. "The Ivy Vlogs" was supposed to try to break down something I have been keeping a secret.
Living authentically, on my own terms
I could say this: whenever I'm not posting on YouTube, I feel comfy about hiding myself from the world, because to me, who really cares if I come out of retirement and release an album? So what. As long as I'm taking care of my own mental health the way I know how, and it's not where I'm hurting myself, I do not see a problem with it. So, living my life in unexpected ways is the only key to live right now, and I'm happy I'm living it with unexpected challenges and obstacle courses.
More than just music: An honest conversation
I hope you all see me as someone who is not quite... yeah, I may be the silent kid in the back of the class in Spanish class, but I'm not a dumb idiot. I hear all those noises when you really play my music just so you can make fun of it in your way. And don't even think just because, "Oh, I'm best friends with the popular girls, then won't listen to Ivy." To me, it's like you have them under your little finger. Trust me, little girl, yeah, I know who I am talking to because out of your small little group in Spanish class, there's only one girl who's acting like a kiss-up, and don't even act like, "Oh, Ivy is acting this way; I don't know why." Uh, please, you already know why. And if my words don't help, maybe this will be one of the lyrics from my brand new song called "Embarrass me for fun (Track 4)":
Pre-Chorus
Every hallway feels like fire
Every joke pulls me down lower
And you don’t care what it does to me
As long as your friends are laughing louder