The ability to go to the mall, invite friends over, and have a quiet childhood without parental conflict is a universal experience many young people take for granted. It is understandable to feel that your life had other plans, pulling you into the spotlight early due to family challenges. By not posting your travels online, you chose to live in the moment rather than for the camera, preserving some of your life for yourself. This reflects a desire to protect the authenticity of your experiences rather than just putting them on display. It’s interesting that you identified a future as a Fashion Wedding Designer if music hadn't taken off. This shows a long-standing passion for design, which could still coexist with your creative work in directing. Many young creatives who start early in music or, as you mentioned, documentary film making often feel they are forced to grow up faster than their peers. My dedication to mental health and directorial projects is admirable, but I am not alone in having a childhood "skipped" in favor of an early career.